It feels like my head is screaming. Not all the time, but most of it. It feels like I’m cornered in a human-sized box with wall on all four sides that I can’t get out of because I can’t even see it. I know it’s there, I feel it and it’s suffocating me. My mind is screaming, but I can’t let it out, I can never let it show because this is what the box is made of: one wall is society’s expectations of me, who ever heard of a girl who started screaming for no reason, saying that her brain was screaming but the doctors found nothing wrong with her? The next wall is my family’s expectations, when they expect me to be sane and reasonable by their standards. Another wall is all the limitations in life, you can’t just say: “I want to do this” and do it anymore, because life doesn’t work like that. Not any more. The last wall is everything else, all those other little things building a wall like a puzzle. If I let it out, there goes my future.
(please ignore the kaleidoscope it’s very distracting, unless of course you want to get hypnotised and watch the video all day in which case by all means do stare at it)